reality. . .

Dealing with Steady Relationships

Falling in love is all right. It’s a nice feeling to be honest. Having a long steady relationship is quite a dream as well. But when emotions mix-up and everything seems to fall apart, you start to get confused of the right things to do. You get stubborn and irritable. You begin to think of why things are not turning out the way you thought they would be. You start to think of your shortcomings and his. You start to feel indifferent. You start to ask yourself if those that you sacrificed for the sake of the relationship were worth it or not. You start to mull over the situation and suddenly give yourself the attention, the kind of attention you long forsaken just to please him. Then you’ll realize it’s still not enough. He is still not satisfied. He still wants you to do this, to do that, he has a comment on your every move. This is when you feel mistreated. This is the phase where you suddenly yearn for the freedom that you once had. The times when you can decide on anything that you want without considering him in your every move. The times when you just rely on yourself, your sense of right from wrong. But since you are hard-headed because of love, you still hold on to the relationship. Patiently waiting for the time when he would appreciate you, the real you and not the person he wants you to be.

4/21/05 11:52PM