THE QUILT OF MY LIFE
People cannot succeed alone…
I could have never been here
If not for those whose love, patience and dedication
Molded my mind, gave me direction, courage and determination.
To my dearly loved mom and grandma
Whose untiring efforts made my education possible.
To my persevering mentors who formed me,
In the basic attitudes of love, self-discipline, self-control and courtesy.
To my devoted partner whose love and support
Made me realize the importance of loving selflessly.
To all those who inspired me
In fostering my integral maturity.
Thank you so much…
I’m Ana Concepcion Bolivar Paras. My friends call me Ana while my family calls me Connie. I’m an only daughter who grew up in a broken family. My parents were annulled before I entered college.
I am an only daughter indeed but I don’t consider myself as a spoiled brat. I might be getting almost all the things that I want but God knows how hard it is for me to attain those things. It’s very hard to please my mom; everything that I want to have has a corresponding deal with her.
The University life was really a roller-coaster ride for me. I experienced a lot of ups and downs that I never thought I could ever overcome. Being in the position to choose between my family and my significant other was really a tough one. I just realized how hard-headed people become when they are in-love. It’s funny how things turned out after that very complicated situation between me and my family. I understood why my mom was so afraid of the idea that her only daughter has a boyfriend. My mom and my boyfriend are now in good terms with each other –that’s how much my mom loves me, she accepted him despite everything because she knows how much I love him–. It’s just sad that I wasn’t able to introduce him to my dad before he passed away.
I never imagined how great the impact of college graduation would do to me. I thought it would just be like the same old feeling I had from my grade school and high school graduation but I was wrong. I was very wrong. The thought of leaving the university, finding a job, helping with the family expenses, being a real independent career woman and thinking of having a family of my own in the future worry me a lot. But don’t get me wrong, I am very happy and excited for my graduation this Saturday. It’s just that I feel sad for leaving the University, the memories, the people I’ve been friends with and the everyday routine I had for four years to face the real world, the reality with all the greater responsibilities I am entitled to take. I’m ambivalent to leave my careless worry-free college life and face my full-of-responsibilities citizen life. May be it’s just an ordinary feeling that college graduating students undergo. I guess after finding a job that I love and enjoy, may be I’ll overcome this dilemma and understand more about life.
to be continued… 4/18/2005 3:00PM
